I wish I had a mom who understands, who listens and doesn’t fight with every word I say. I can’t get along with you, maybe it’s because I have so many resemtments towards you because you stoped being my mom at the age of 12. We don’t have a relationship, all we do is fight, there is no way of getting through to one another and I think your fucking crazy and it really hurts me deep down inside because I don’t have a mom yeah I might have someone who gave birth to me and loves me but I’ll never have a mom who understands me or listens to me or just wants to be around me. You counted down the days till I turned eight teen to kick me out guess what mom it’s been 2 years now your first born kid is about to be 20 you always let other people take me because you couldn’t handle me yourselfers fucking passed me off. I had to MOM MY FUCKING SELF and I had to learn MYSELF because I didn’t have you or dad around. Maybe it’s because I know you hate me and sometimes I just want to scream and cry about my life and just have you say it’s okay, everythings going to be okay BUT IT WILL NEVER BE LIKE THAT sometimes I just want my fucking mommy back. I just wish you were something your not, and maybe you just don’t know how to be a mom. Its not like theirs how to be a good mom classes. Fucking A. I used to always think I was blessed with a curse by my fucking family. I just want things to be okay, why can’t I have a normal relationship with my family because my moms to depressed and anxious and caught up in her job to spend anytime with me. And my dad’s to busy smoking pot and working and my brothers are going to be graduating high school soon. And then there’s me the fucked up drug addict black sheep of the family who got the brunt of the abuse who got the anger and violence taken out on, because she was so easy to hate. Why do I need you anyways? CAUSE YOUR MY FUCKING FAMILY and you know what I have met people who aren’t my blood who treated me more like family then you have. I love you but fuck you. I need help with this. I can’t handle this.